splat ... o shit i tihnk i fell from heaven lol .... isnt my hair juts so sexy it just falls when i dont fix it poems poems poems old , black, rainy days with nothing in site where am i that was all the fealings i felt that night when u kissed me good night ... what are you trying to tell me it me ... tell me i kno it must hurt but please let me kno how ur fealing in side with that glar in your eye i kno its about me so just tell me ... cant you see i am there just like you wanted me to be ... waiting 2 kno how you are inside ... as the tears fall down ar faces ... letting you kno how much you care i kno i hurt you and it wasnt a dare ... i truly loved you ... so just come back in my arms ur the only one insite just come back in to the dreams i had last night ..i kno by heart ... where you really there for me or did i just turn and stair ...i want to let you know i really care and you may not think so and you may not kno bt i am there thru ur pain and ur trobles i want 2 b there 4 u ... every step of the way i want you to kno i am there .. i want you to be there by my side as i cry at night ...lonly and depressed ... all the stress in my life... heart akes heart brakes ... baby i want you 2 kno i am always there and when ever you need to talk im there ... no matter if it makes me cry ... im only crying cause your happy about im there ... i want to b there when your really happy or when your really sad ... i just want to make you happy and i will take the risk of any thing just to be there i want you 2 b happy and i wish that was with me but ur the some one i cant have ... and i have always wanted ....ears fall down my face at the start of ur embrase ... i love you i cant bring it 2 words its somethin they cant explain... i love you for all your worth and its not a shame cause you've brought tears to my eyes, happyness and joy ... WOOT WOOT i wrote these all! my friend and i wrote this one life is running 2 fast ... just slow it down just a little I feel like i am running every where i go... JUST STOP ... walk .. life is just a big mess no wonders where you’ll end up... i don’t know what’s happening with my life ... i just want to Hide please let me free i want to b normal but no matter how hard i try i know i cant ... if its not me its my family ..i just want to go n my ball n hide. Where no one can find me.... i am really glad your always there 4 me though no matter which way i turn your there 4 me! thanks your the best ! and i really mean it this is the end of my world tell me what’s going on im trapped please come and save me. No understands me except you trying to breath is hard enough see the doubt in your eyes i ask why you feel so alone and you say its harder the feel then to see, my pain is growing with every step i take it gets harder and harder to realize just who i am i am spinning in a never-ending circle and wont stop till i found out the true me. ok that’s the best i could do i have tried everything i could think i just don’t know. Think u 4 understanding me the way Karen understands me ... u r the only one like me ... do u really feel the same way? ... we haven’t really ha r ^ &v s and i don’t really know u that well and u don’t really know me ... but wt i know i really like .. just look me n the eyes and tell me your happy now ... your n my mind like all the time your my happiness your my sole my every thing & i think your truly something special.. your wt my dreams r made of ... i cant explain it i am just so n 2 u at times i feel your soles next 2 mine and others i feel like its floating way .. i cant let u go like n a flow the day goes by with no success of what i am longing for you love is stronger then i can say i need someone here someone to hear my thoughts some one to be there there for me My knees start to weaken At the first sight of your face My heart starts to melt At the thought of your embrace Your love flows through me Like a river flows down its path Your kiss lifts me up so high I could probably fall to my death I really wish that When I looked into your eyes I could see Exactly how it is that You feel about me I get nervous when you're around me I feel I could cry when you're away I dream about you Every night and day I want you to know My last three words will always remain true Regardless of what I may say or do You'll always know that I love you.life..dark cold space...nothingness...heartbeats with pressure and pain who knows how much i grieve...sweet sorrow speaks of the day who says life is great my pain grows with weakness throughout my dark stormy days....night, sounds of your crying ,beats of your tears are so loud that they flow along with my heart. raindrops hit so freely what would it be like to be rain go anywhere do anything anytime I still haven’t found out that certain thing im longing for you r long is still not here don’t give me that look when you see just how i feel my light is running out no more time cant move on with my life till i have found out the true me i just don’t know anymore please help me. people I see walking are dangerously close to my heart some one has let me go...falling down where there is no landing to land on drying up my tears with a damp paper towel but the tears wont wipe up heartaches and tears wont let me hide i have been broken. a puzzle 5000 piece i need to be picked up and put back together to find out who i am i just don’t know. Why are we fighting to live if we are only living to fight? Why are we trying to see when there is nothing in sight? Why are we trying to give when there nothing to give? Why are we dying to live if we are only living to die? Those are the true ?’s of life my life is going no where i feel i don’t have a purpose to live anymore he is so sweet and dear to my heart i feel i don’t deserve to live he will soon find out how much i love him i love for him heart drops with tears flowing from my face just to see my sweet love your always there in my heart and then the nothing ness is now so be gone heartbreaks fulfill with need as i see you looking down at my crying heart filled with sadness baby i love you i always will And I don't want the world to see me 'Cause I don't think that they'd understand When everything's made to be broken I just want you to know who I am if only the rules were built upon philosophy that i embraced id hug your neck and face I'll Always Be There In times of trouble, In times of need, If you are feeling SAD, You can count on me. I will give you a wink, Until you smile, give you a hug, And stand by your side. I'll be there for you till the end, I'll always and forever, be your friend! This is only in my heart heartaches…heartbreaks…throughout all the sadness. Dark stormy tears fall out of my eyes, they are the color of your soul. No one will let me be me. Just leave me alone! Everybody stop. Look at me, look how sad I am. As I see the cold hard despair in you empty eyes as you lay there Quiet and unspoken. DEAD. What am I going to do now that your actually gone out of my life forever? My eyes fill with tears once again. Loneliness cries as harsh sheets of rainfall in tune with my heartbeats. That you lord for understanding me but its just not enough. At the break of dawn my final day has finally rang out, one slice or shot or rope could fix everything. He was so near to my heart that I would kill to be with him even sacrifice myself for his love that im longing for. Dangerous thrills flow through my body as I hold the cold sharp blade against my chalky soft flesh against my wrist. I dropped the blade and fall to my knees not know what is going to happen next. I cant do I just can do it I think to myself. I pick up the blade once again thinking I can do it but I can I just cant do it. Although I will die for him I don’t know why I just cant get it over with I love him so much I am going to kill all the pain once and for all. This needs to end all of the crying and sulking and I need to get out o my dark room out of my own little corner. I love him so much I need him so much that I don’t understand anything. Maybe a rope would be better but would It hurt more. I don’t feel the need to die yet but I want to die, die for love and be with him even though we broke it off it seemed like it didn’t even end he said I was into the music as much as he was and I agreed. He broke our relationship. There really isn’t a happy ending to this story but he has not died only in my heart has he gone. I talk to him ever so often but that doesn’t help me at all I still love him. Although he says he still loves me he wont get back together with me, not that I ask I just patiently wait my turn. We talk about others that we like. He is my best friend and he knows that but does he know that I still love him. Only in my heart. ... im out bye bye - PuRdI

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this is my very first web entry im soo happy! lol listening to: simple plan mood: sad, yet happy? i think our time has came ... and i think our time has passed i wont ever forget the jokes you told me or when we needed help with our problems. i wont ever forget how much fun we had i wont forget about all thoes boys you set me up with all to many to count and telling me they just arnt worth it... yet i am starting to realize i only have true fealings for one guy and i may not ever see him and he may to good to be true if friendship was ment to last a life time what happend to me and you i will never forget our last fights they got very deep! and ill never forget thoes times you whernt there for me where you just left me out and forgot about me ill just remember our friendship and how it wasnt ment to be .... as i watch my sole sink very deep carebears rock! who is looking for nemo ( wow i found him bt y is he in a lil baggie ... dont ask me i just play hide and seek lol he just looked kool dont yathink ok well im out for 2 day lol nite smerfs are awsome i think he has 2 go and shit he is taking 2 long ... gotta go love u all

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